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twilight: lisp loud
04:13
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[moon witch]: and we will lisp loud!
[solstice]: and we will lisp loud!
[moon witch]: wear our scars proud!
[solstice]: wear our scars proud!
[moon witch]: let our songs shout!
[solstice]: let our songs shout!
[moon witch]: til the shame's out!
[solstice]: til the shame's out!
[together]:
primrose, moonseed, honeysuckle, yew—
i am starting to see you come clear into view.
the sky amethystine, the grass somehow blue.
let's wander together, take off our shoes.
loosestrife, buckthorn, sow thistle, cress—
we are tangled but untangled nonetheless.
the clouds cirrostratus, the birds acquiesce.
let's repair the fractures, live without regret.
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dusk: find me/kill me
03:42
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[moon witch]:
cover your eyes, do not peek!
excess is my territory.
concealed in my environment—
we are ecosystems, don't forget!
stumble in bramble, barely seen
as the sunlight begins disappearing.
i'll stay where i am, though i'm afraid
that being without you means i'm safe.
ready or not here i come you can't hide!
open your ears, listen to me!
what i lack is a category.
if i revel in not-knowing then i'll know
i don't know and can begin growing.
the sun's almost gone from the sky.
did i catch a glimpse of you running by?
if i can't find you, i'll shout your name—
but i hope it's soon, it's supposed to rain.
ready or not here i come you can't hide!
find me and kill me!
[solstice]: i have never wanted you so bad!
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[solstice]:
you make me see through the dark
you make me believe in my heart
but i can't swallow everything you say
can i speak of all the things that i erase?
can we compose an accident:
a utopia that's inhabited?
[moon witch]: solstice!
[solstice]: moon witch!
[moon witch]:
aren't we all just singing to a darkened screen?
aren't we all just clinging to get back to the dream?
[solstice]:
we kept talking but didn't say anything
[together, but apart]:
i can't see you, but i can see the moon...
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[moon witch]:
i began to bleed;
anxious to please.
an impulse to speak
before i get weak—
then, above the trees
so, too, the moon did seep.
a discovery:
we share a body.
below, the earth was waiting
for the acheiropoieton.
i saw them stare up vacant
as if their nerve was taken.
[solstice]:
i spread my hair onto the water.
reached for my reflection;
it's what i could offer.
i tumbled in and swam swiftly under
in your general direction;
the moon was my altar.
[moon witch]:
i knew a half-sweetness
in my incompleteness
i fall to my knees and
then i syncope—
[solstice]:
my body kept moving
as if it were blooming.
i forgot "together."
"apart" i remember.
[moon witch]:
......................
[solstice]:
i started to sink;
reluctant to be asleep.
a new dream untrained
after i am renamed.
[moon witch]:
i wake to hear you
in the water
somehow plashless
i can't stop bleeding!
[solstice]:
the world was inverted
below the surface
it felt familiar
down here in the river
all of this searching
that i had been yearning
was finally here and
then i disappeared.
[moon witch]:
i left a
trail of
seeds that
wouldn’t grow
until i did, i do.
i forfeit;
my form split.
i became
again.
[solstice]:
i came to the surface
bewildered but certain
that something had changed.
was this prearranged?
[moon witch]:
you can explain it
a thousand ways but
i’ll still wonder.
i’ll always wonder.
[together, but apart]:
how will i ever tell?
will the words compel?
where will we meet once more?
what can our songs explore?
[the moon]:
you will betray each other!
you will lose your way!
do not fret: just listen to
what each other has to say.
love is trust, honesty, and understanding.
it's as simple as that.
just work in tandem.
forgive each other!
especially when you fail
to find the words to explain—
then you will prevail.
i am not saying there won't be pain;
this is living.
but do not let it control you;
keep on singing!
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dawn: home in my skin
04:53
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[solstice]:
storming, forming.
what aches the most?
little death in my chest.
are you gone with my lost words?
touching, reaching.
is the silence approaching?
let's steer away from loneliness
and we will talk just about being.
i can see myself transforming
though my old self still roams around.
it's hard to escape the everydayness;
even when i leave, it's my hometown.
everyone else saw it different.
but i know what i saw;
i know what i felt.
won't you
believe me?
believe me.
i can't remember where i am and i don't mind.
i can't remember and i don't mind.
i don't mind.
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[moon witch]:
i am living your yesterday.
when tomorrow comes, will you still stay?
you were shouting my sobriquet
before you went and broke away.
i saw you
as you transformed;
it looked as though
you'd been reborn.
the sky grew light
as they rang the alarm.
i watched them
scatter back
to their yards.
i wasn't in the water, i had stayed up all night,
i wasn't swimming, the space changed, i was lonely i was light.
a place i cannot reach: i wonder if i wonder if
if everyone is someone then is someone my befit?
i became a local and so hated my location
but i grew to love your use of words and frightening punctuation.
i could visualize a change in the (maybe) future
but seeing it so clear didn't make it happen sooner.
i don't remember: what is ache?
is it just an awareness of how we break?
i looked up at the sun and felt out of sync
seeing no deity with whom i could link.
but i heard story
of some mythology
that made me believe
beyond what's in front of me.
i still can't commit
beyond the innominate
yet when we were moonlit
i felt i finally fit.
i was slack in my body as the morning came.
i tried to exist less, but existed all the same.
not a prayer nor a poem nor a verse to be sung
that would make you see just how far i have come undone.
i wanted our bodies to have some symmetry
but i can't shake the feeling we were designed differently.
perhaps i just need an explanation
for what it is in how we speak that bars communication.
do you regret your choice?
is that why now your voice
says, "see, what i destroyed
is now what i rejoice"?
well, i am sorry
there is no guarantee
the sun brings any clarity
to our sense of identity.
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7. |
zenith: sun soliloquy
03:04
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[[[ zzz ]]]
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8. |
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[moon witch]:
i went looking
for the tigers
and the lions
downstairs
you were waiting
for me there
but you were not
even aware
that i was looking for
a way out of the house
there was something more
i could not pronounce
[solstice]:
where did i go?
what could i be?
on a rock i stood
lost at sea
i tried to explain
my memory
as the roses
grew beneath my feet
i dreamed a dream tonight
i remember the feeling
hallucinating light
it left me reeling
[together]:
i found a way to sing
to you from where i slept
some strange wiring
allowed us to connect
[moon witch]: what would we—
[solstice]: say if we—
[moon witch]: we woke up—
[solstice]: from a dream—
[moon witch]: dream we dreamt—
[solstice]: together? a dream—
[moon witch]: dream we dreamt—
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evening: unlearn, rename
06:29
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[moon witch]:
did you go out to hunt for hurricanes?
did your paper crown get destroyed in the rain?
it's not like this skin was mine to begin with.
it's not like this body is permanent.
[solstice]:
is it time we should meet?
before the world ends - and repeat.
my head is a magic place:
come in, come in, please stay.
[moon witch]:
it's far too easy to lie to ourselves.
it keeps us warm when nothing else will.
do things change? can things change?
we tell ourselves we've been
progressing since we came, but...
[solstice]:
...the truth is that it's circular;
there's far too much to unlearn.
[moon witch]:
i want to tell you everything.
i want for us to feel no shame.
i want for us to really change.
so let's stop lying. let's rename.
[solstice]:
our palms, so sweaty.
i know you know we're made the same.
our hearts, so heavy.
i know you know we'll unite again.
[moon witch]:
i vow to remember
what change we found together,
our miscible sense of tether.
now we will never sever.
[solstice]:
i vow to remember
what change we found together,
our miscible sense of tether.
now we will never sever.
[together]:
i vow to remember
what change we found together,
our miscible sense of tether.
now we will never sever.
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10. |
moon summer
07:34
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[together]:
try to remember our first syzygy
i know i was late, so i left early
see: i am what it isn't and cannot be
so bury what's left beneath the old tree
and dig it out next spring...
(((reconsider reconciliation!)))
(((revisit reconsideration!)))
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